I'm not usually one to blog about my thoughts or feelings, nor am I one to talk about them, but tonight I'm up thinking while Bret is asleep and I know I won't be able to sleep until I clear my mind, so here it goes.
People always ask me, "How's married life?" And I guess I usually reply with something like "It's fun". We've been married now for 2 1/2 years and in that time I feel like we have, and still are, faced with any and all trials a newly married couple can possibly face. Honestly. But as I look back at these past couple years and at my life now, I feel like it's been a breeze. Aren't couples supposed to argue and fight every now and then? I'm not saying that we've never had a disagreement, but I can count the times when we've really been mad at each other on one hand. Our trials have made us sad, but have brought us closer together. The truth is, I have a really great husband. He is patient and always kind. He listens to me and keeps nothing from me. I think he lives just to make me happy. If I cough he jumps up and gets me a glass of water. If I'm making dinner and realize I'm out of eggs he doesn't hesitate to run to the store so that I don't have to. I should be getting used to these things by now, but I don't think I ever will.
Before I met Bret I was very independent. I dated, but rarely had a boyfriend, had friends, but few close friends. I just didn't feel like I needed them. I was totally self centered, I had my life and my goals and basically did whatever I wanted to do. I worked out and shopped and had hobbies and I thought doing those things was what made me happy. Now, I don't remember the last time I did any of those things, I've gained weight, I'm as white as a ghost, I'm terrible at the piano and I am happier than I have ever been. Being married is fun, we are best friends, but it is so much more than that. The Spirit is strong in our home and relationship, and I feel like as a wife my life has had more meaning than ever before.
So when you ask me how married life is, I will probably continue to tell you it's fun because if I always answered the question with everything I've said in this blog, I would definitely run out of friends.